I look back on the time I spent as a “christian” and I often wonder what would have happened if I hadn’t wasted all that time on such a foolish notion. I would like to share with you the process that I consider to be my deconversion from xtianity.
First, let me digress a little bit. I had been a little skeptical, in retrospect, about the religious beliefs that I had been indoctrinated into since I was old enough to speak. I would ask questions about things I had learned in Sunday school and the answer I almost always received was, “ours is not to question, we aren’t meant to understand god’s will”. I just accepted this answer as the truism I was indoctrinated to believe it to be. It wasn’t until I got to my teenage years that I really began to question things and my skepticism blossomed.
My true awakening did not occur until my 41st year on this planet. This was when I read “The God Delusion” By Richard Dawkins. As I turned the pages of this wonderful work, I suddenly, and quite sadly, realized that I had wasted many years of my life. Not on xtianity but on rampant agnosticism. Years that I could have been studying great works by the likes of Dawkins, Krauss, Kant, and others. But, I digress. Having truly opened my eyes for the first time, I felt as if this gigantic weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I felt freer than I had felt in my entire life.
No, it wasn’t some miraculous light or the heavens didn’t open up or anything. It was simply a realization. Moving forward to the present day, I am active on Twitter and have become an outspoken atheist. I will always rue the time I wasted but, alas, the past cannot be changed. I truly feel pity for those misguided xtians that continue to waste their time on some fairy tale sky wizard!
The question most often asked of me is; how can you have any morals without religion? My answer is simple. I derive my morals based on millions of years of evolution and the fact that I have a deep seated sense of what is right and what is wrong. If you look at the xtian religious aspect of right vs. wrong, there is a a lot of wrong in the xtian bible.
Well that is all for now. That is a lot off of my mind.